Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Idolatry is defined as ‘the worship of idols, ‘ which to me meant bowing down to some symbol or statue that represented a false god, and I’ve certainly never done that. … There is a second definition for idolatry, which is ‘extreme admiration, love, or reverence for something or someone.’ When I read that one, I became highly concerned.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Idols”-Jenna Anderson

“First”-Lauren Daigle

Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“I grew up with the mindset that ‘being comfortable’ was the goal of life. I wanted to live a life with no worries. … I know that Jesus does not call us to live a life of comfort. But since I suffered my brain injury, I know that I have to take care of myself to be able to serve other people.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Even If”-MercyMe

“Evn If”-Kutless


Taking It To The Limit…

Early on, back when I was about 11-12 years of age, I decided I wanted to be one of the ones who would be “Taking It To The Limit.” In fact, my closest memory to that age was I decided to go roller skating. When I first began, I was a fumbling, falling down mess. But something inside me said you are going to master this as I went to “Spinning Wheels” every Saturday from 9-12 pm in Londonderry, NH.

Like every roller skating rink that is around America back in the mid-1980’s, “Spinning Wheels” had an oval polyurethane floor that made it easy to slip on with roller skates. The first few times I went, it was torture to keep myself upright. Before long, however, I was able to keep myself steady with a pair of boots with death wheels attached to them. Yes, it took months of fumbling around before I became steady on my feet, and it took me a few more months to begin to try and roller skate backwards. Yet, by the time I started roller skating backwards, I had enough experience in skating frontwards that I was willing to give backwards a shot. Pretty soon, I was doing nothing but backwards. I remember weaving in and out around people at the rink. I even started to lift my leg with the other one just skating along. Those were the days.

Yet, my new attitude only did not affect my roller skating abilities, but it now affected my spiritual life. I knew God wanted it all-to “Take It To The Limit” as it were, not just a half-hearted effort into whatever you are doing. So, I started looking for ways to share the gospel, then it happened, nearly 2 years later when I was 14.

Searching my memory, I landed on a specific instance in which it happened that it affected my spiritual life. It was in 9th grade. Less than ominous, but nevertheless grey clouds surrounded that September school day. It was right after school. The school had a make-shift basketball court, and I was shooting some hoops. Figuratively, the basketball came down like someone put cement in the ball instead of air in the ball. The feeling was an ominous. Ever trying to decipher what I went through, God knew how to grab my attention, just like He does you.

See, I was praying that God would use me for about a year before the incident at the school happened. During that year prior to the incident at the basketball court, I was an active listener to overseas missionaries, inner-city youth pastors and leaders, etc. So, I decided the youth was where God was going to send me. And God played along with that until shortly after my high school graduation and eighteenth birthday. During those playing along years that God allowed me to go through, I achieved multiple recognitions and awards for preaching 5-minute sermonettes that were directed at the youth. God was preparing me for what I had to face. I knew that I was going to a Christian college to become a youth pastor from the age of 14.

However, God had different plans for my life. Proverbs 20:24 says this,

A person’s steps are directed by the Lord. How can anyone understand their own way? (NIV)

Well, I was about to find out in a big way what the Lord Almighty had in store for me. Twenty-five days after my high school graduation and eighteen days after my eighteenth birthday (when you become an adult in the USA), I fell asleep at the wheel just working the night-shift as an unarmed security guard. I should have been dead but wasn’t. No, no, no the Lord had different plans for me. But had I known beforehand, I would have changed my actions before June 28, 1989.

See, that was the day I was overtired and driving (not something I encourage anyone to do) on the highway with absolutely beautiful granite ledges that they tore through in order to make the highway. I crashed into one of the granite ledges that surrounded the highway and instantly put me into a coma for one month with my whole right side paralyzed. That left me with a traumatic brain injury (TBI).

One of the doctors assigned to my case said that rarely does anyone see a complete recovery from this type of injury. He said that I would be “lucky” if I progressed any further, but through prayers of much more than my family to the Almighty God I woke up out of the coma.

Although I was out of the coma, I still had a hard and long way to go. For Matthew 7:13-14 says,

Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter it are many. For the gate is narrow and hard that leads to life, and those that find it are few. (ESV)

Remember that prayer I prayed to my Daddy outside this world? The prayer that said I would do anything to proclaim His Word back when I was just 13-14 years of age? Yeah, that prayer. I almost protested to God, but thankfully I didn’t. Instead, I eventually accepted it nearly 3 weeks into my rehabilitation process, and thus began my process of physical and spiritual rehabilitation.

It has been almost 30 years since that almost fatal crash and thirty-six years since I prayed that original prayer of dedication of “Taking It To The Limit.” For 1 Peter 2:21 says this-

For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you can follow in His steps. (ESV)

Now, that you have read this, I’m interested in your story of “Taking It To The Limit.” Please comment:

Found a couple of YouTube music video links:

“Take It To The Limit”-Whitecross (no lyrics)

“Go Hard (or Go Home)-Lecrae ft. Tendashi

Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Based on the nature of my brain injury, my future prognosis is unpredictable. … My memory is one thing I am most nervous about, and I felt the need to write my entire story down in case one day I forget what happened.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“The Older I Get”-Alan Jackson

Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outome by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

abnormal: deviating from what is normal or usual.

In regard to my Christian faith, I always made sure to stay as ‘normal’ as possible. I was careful to not stand out to much from the crowd. … My focus on maintaining normalcy led me to becoming lukewarm, which I have since discovered is something that Jesus despises (see Rev. 3:16). … Jesus desires us to become the opposite. “-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Soul On Fire”-Third Day

Explanation Of 1 Peter 2:21

For to this, you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps. 1 Peter 2:21 ESV

• This is a call to all Christians whoever should read this verse. Let us break it apart. “For to this you have been called“-this doesn’t mean just pastors, their wives, and children; it doesn’t mean just elders, deacons and their wives and children; it just doesn’t mean missionaries, their wives and children; it doesn’t mean the people who have a passion for Christ; no, it means every Christian throughout the world. ” because Christ also suffered for you,“-this is where this can get a bit tricky for believer that had just come into the faith by Jesus Christ or someone who is stagnant in their faith. Questions arise about how could God ‘suffer for you’ all across time. However, Hebrew 11:6 says ‘without faith, it is impossible to please God.’ “leaving you an example,“-this is where many (if not most American Christians) have a tough time since American Christians have a more easy time to pray for safety rather than boldness. “ so that you may follow in His steps.“-this is a tough one for even seasoned Christians that have walked in the faith for a number of years, but we must continue to walk in the faith shown by works (James 2:14-26).

“Walk With Me”-Jesus Culture ft. Kim Walker-Smith

Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Please don’t get me wrong. There are times when my old heart tries to reappear and my old normal starts coming back. An old normal that was characterized by misplaced priorities, a lukewarm faith, pride disguising as humility, selfishness disguised as generosity, a half-hearted devotion to God’s commandments, and a misguided attempt at following Jesus. When I start going back to this, I soon figure out I don’t even want it anymore.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Lord, I Give You My Heart”-Hillsong Worship

“Dear Me”-Nichole Nordeman

Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“… I need to start trusting God with the unknowns… This was many of the things that I had recently learned about God and Jesus started coming back to the forefront of my mind, and I began to find peace with my current situation.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Trust In You”-Lauren Daigle

“Perfect Peace”-Laura Story

Jesus Christ: Man of Peace. Then what about Christians? Aren’t they supposed to follow after Christ?

Matthew 5:9 says,

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the sons of God. (ESV)

However, just five chapters later in Matthew 10:34, Jesus Christ says this,

Do not think that I have come to bring peace on earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. (ESV)

“Hmmm…” say the naysayers, “The Bible is full of contradictions. See, we told Christians this, and now the author of the blog and administrator of is saying the same. Only this one was made by Jesus Christ, Himself. Is there anything else needed to convince Christians that the Bible is full of fallacies?”

“Wait a minute, ” I say. Christ is the epitome of peace. You just have to take a look at His life chronicled throughout the four gospels. You may say, “What about His anger at the money changers that Jesus overturned the tables in the synagogue?” (John 2:11-22; Matthew 21:12-17; Mark 11:15-19). First of all, that was righteous anger. Next, Jesus Christ was all about protecting His Father’s house, although the officials were swindling the rest of the Jews and Gentiles by overcharging people by exorbitant amounts so the officials could maintain their life of ease and snobery. But may I remind you that this was the synagogue, where God was supposed to be worshipped. What a rebel to think that God is more important than yourself. Yet, that is exactly what He did.

Jesus was a Man of Peace. You say, “What about Matthew 10:34 which says,

Do not think that I have come to bring peace on earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. (ESV)

“What about that?” you say. See, this is where this gets good. Knowing humanity, Jesus didn’t want us to think of Him as a physical conquering King where He would instill peace by force. In Isaiah 55:8, it says this,

My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither your ways My ways declares the Lord. (ESV)

He didn’t want us to think that living for Jesus would be a walk in the park (Luke 9:23; 1 Peter 2:21). No. He knew it would cause inner turmoil amongst us. And that is precisely the reason why He said,

Do not think that I have come to bring peace on earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. (Matthew 10:34, ESV)

Jesus Christ knew the outcome of human beings left on their own; unfortunately, we wouldn’t take the time necessary for things to play out. Christ knew before the creation of the world (yes, He existed before the creation of the world, in whatever form until He was born a human being through a virgin *because Scripture doesn’t make it exactly clear other than in Isaiah 6*). To step out of unseen heaven to make a visit on this now a shamble of earth marred by sin is unfathomable to me. Yet Jesus Christ did. Hebrews 11:6 says,

Without faith, no one can please God. Anyone who comes to God must believe that He is real, and He rewards those who truly want to find Him. (NCV)

And you flippantly ask, “What is faith? I know what faith is, things I can see with my own two eyes!” No, that isn’t faith.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1, KJV)

OK. I went off into a rabbit trail, but this rabbit trail could lead you into being a man of peace as you closely follow what Jesus did.

For to this you were called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you may walk in His steps. (1Peter 2:21, ESV)

True Life Christians are supposed to be men and women of peace only by following after Jesus Christ: the Man of Peace.

“Perfect Peace”-Laura’s Story

“Peace In Christ”-Mutual Theme 2018

Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“When I couldn’t practice medicine any longer, I started asking myself all kinds of questions. I had spent most of my life preparing to be a doctor. Now that this was suddenly not an option, what was I supposed to do for the rest of my life?”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“I Can’t Make It On My Own”-Interview with Toby Mac

“Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome” by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Despite all of my drastic changes and the arrival of my ‘new normal,’ I was still somehow able to continue working as a doctor, a miracle in and of itself. … But this didn’t last. Eventually, because of the complications from my traumatic brain injury, I wasn’table to do this anymore.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“The Struggle”-Tenth Avenue North

“Scars”-Jonny Diaz

“Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome” by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Craig Groeschel said, ‘We might impress people with our strengths, but we connect people through our weaknesses.’ God has given me this weakness so I could help others dealing with similar situations and to point them towards my source of strength.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Broken Things”-Matthew West

“Shoulders”-For King and Country

Almighty God or Heavenly Daddy? Both or Separate? I’m CONFUSED!

In the 70’s-80’s, back when I was growing up, I would have to say that Christians had a more definite reverence for God. However, somewhere in the 90’s Christians changed from being more reverant to God and treating Him like a Heavenly Daddy; it almost seems like we had exchanged reverence for God for a more personal God, although Christians would never say it.

Through the years, most Protestant churches and even some liberal Catholic churches are attempting to let God be more personal. And yes, God is personal; verses like John 3:16 come to mind which says,

God loved the world so much that he gave His One and only Son so that whoever believes in Him may not be lost but have eternal life. (NCV)

How can God express His love for the world in order for us to be with Him when the penalty for sin is death? God is life. It was like Jesus Christ (His Son) was the second Adam because He was born without sin, which He had in common with the first Adam. Yet the first Adam made a crucial mistake in that he ate from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil; the tree that God told him not to eat from. But, once Adam and Eve made the wrong choice to pursue the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil, God couldn’t allow us to eat from the tree of (eternal) Life, putting an angel to guard the tree. See, God was protecting us which shows us that He is personal.

Just think… What were humanity supposed to do with an eternity separated from God if Adam and Eve ate from the tree of (eternal) life right after they ate from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil? Disastrous!

So, God was protecting us until a perfect sacrifice in Jesus Christ was made for us until the end of the age. Once a perfect sacrifice was made, all we have to do is constantly accept it by living for God by Jesus Christ. God the Father is personal because the attribute of love is deeply personal.

Yet, it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out God is worthy of all our praises citing the prophet, Isaiah in Isaiah 6:1-5:

In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord sitting on a very high throne. His long robe filled the Temple. Heavenly creatures of fire stood above Him. Each creature has six wings: It had two wings to cover its face, two wings to cover its feet, and two wings for flying. Each creature was calling to the others: “Holy, Holy, Holy, is the Lord All-powerful. His glory fills the whole earth.” Their calling caused the flame around the door to shake, as the Temple filled with smoke. I said, “Oh, no! I will be destroyed! I am not pure, and I live among people who are not pure, but I have seen the King, the Lord All-Powerful.” (NCV)

What does this section of Scripture say about the Lord God? He is the Almighty God. Remember 2 Samuel 6? Shortly after King David became king of all Israel, he decided to have the holiest artifact, the Ark of the Covenant, returned to Jerusalem. Now, the Ark of the Covenant represented where God was. Read on…

David again gathered all the chosen men in Israel-thirty thousand of them. Then he and his people went to Baalah in Judah to bring back the Ark of God. The Ark is called by the Name, the Name of the Lord All-Powerful, whose throne is between the gold creatures with wings. They put the Ark of God on a new cart and brought it out of Abinadab’s house on a hill. Uzzah and Ahio, son’s of Abinadab, led the new cart, which had the Ark of God on it. Ahio was walking in front of it. David and all the Israelites were celebrating in the

Presence of the Lord. They were

playing wooden instruments:

lyres, harps, tambourines,

rattles, and cymbals. When

David’s men came to the

threshing floor of Nacom, the

oxen stumbled. So Uzzah

reached out his hand to steady

the Ark of God. The Lord was

angry with Uzzah and killed

him for what he did. Now that

place is called the Punishment of Uzzah. David was afraid of

the Lord that day, and he said,

“How can the Ark of the Lord

come to me now?”So David

would not move the Ark of the

Lord to be with him in

Jerusalem. Instead, he took it

to the house of Obed-Edom, a

man from Gath. (2 Samuel

6:1-10; NCV)

So, which is it? Almighty God or Heavenly Daddy? Both cases have there staunch supporters. I met one person recently that he did not think God would, in fact, humble Himself to send His Son (Jesus Christ) to come down to be born a human being in the worse possible conditions. That person said God is to Holy for that kind of degradation. Yes, God is Holy!

However, you get the supporters of the view that God is a Heavenly Daddy stating Scripture verses like the most famous one of John 3:16 and Romans 5:8 which says,

But God showed His great love for us in this way: Christ died for us while we were still sinners. (NCV)

I see where this hot topic issue concerning the reverence for God and God as the Holy Daddy has its stance. Even those uneducated about the things of God would say that the Holy Bible cannot be infallible because of this very issue.

Let us take this issue by the horns. I submit to you that God is both-Almighty God and Heavenly Daddy. All of us should have respect for God since He is the only One that can create stuff from nothing (Genesis 1), but He is also interested in His creation, because we have the freedom to choose eternal life or eternal death caused by sin (John 3:16-21; John 17:1-3; Romans 8:3-11).

Admittedly, more often than not, I take God as more of a Heavenly Daddy given what I have been through in my life. God desires that, but at the expense of His Holy Lordship over my life? Definitely Not! Maybe you struggle with there being a Heavenly Daddy seeing God as to Holy to ever be considered as a Heavenly Daddy? Well, good news because He is inviting you into a relationship with Him as a Heavenly Daddy.

“So Will I (100 Billion Times)”-Hillsong United

“Reckless Love”-Corey Asbury

“Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome” by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Because of the extravagance of these revelations, and so I wouldn’t get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in touch with my limitations. … At first I didn’t think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then He told me, My grace is enough; it is all you need. My strength comes from your weakness. … (2 Corinthians 12:7-10, MSG)“-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“His Strength Is Perfect”-Steven Curtis Chapman

“Your Grace Is Enough”-Chris Tomlin

“Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome” by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“I began to realize that my relationship with God was never intended to be on the surface level, or even private, but instead it was supposed to be constantly living and public for all the world around me to see.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Tell The World”-Lecrae

“Jesus Freak”-DC Talk

“Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome” by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm-neither hot nor cold- I am about to spit you out of my mouth. (Rev. 3:15-16, NIV)

… After this awakening, my heart changed and I would never be the same.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Changed”-Jordan Feliz

“Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome” by Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“Survivors of traumatic brain injuries recognize that they are fortunate to have survived their brain injury because, typically, whatever caused it could have easily taken their life. … …my purpose was only found after I let go of who I used to be and accepted who I am now. This is when God came in and completely turned my life around.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.


“Change My Heart, Oh God”

“Finding Normal: An Uninvited Change, An Unexpected Outcome” by Jeff Huxford M.D.

“I needed to strive after the hope of God, the hope that is an anchor for our souls (Hebrews 6:19), and trust that He would take care of me through it all. So I started the process of accepting the new me.”-Jeff Huxford, M.D.

“A Song of Hope”-(Heaven Come Down)-artist unknown

“Hope Changes Everything”-New Song

“In the beginning GOD…”

I have been praying to God about what do I blog about this past week. Actually, it has been a constant prayer of mine since September last year. However, I wasn’t getting anything from God as to what to blog about. Yet, through my activities over the past week, I began to pick up on something, or maybe should I call it a “God something.”

The Lord God began impressing on me, “In the beginning God” using different methods of communication. At my local church, we are going through Genesis 1-11 on Wednesday nights specializing in the phrase, “In the beginning God.” This past week, I went to work when I had heard some sermon on Genesis 1:1 where Pastor Irwin Lutzer is the senior pastor at Moody Church in Chicago, Illinois and the mouthpiece for God at Running to Win Ministries. “Interesting,” I thought to myself, ever trying to find God’s will for my life. Then, I began to seriously think about it creating excuses along the way like I am not educated in all the nuances in Creation. However, I finally submitted just like Moses and Gideon. Hopefully, some of you who read this will get something out of this blog like one never thought of it this way before to radically changing your view of Creation.

In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth. (Genesis 1:1; KJV)

Moses, under the inspiration of God, could hardly think of the words he would use making so much controversy when he wrote them. Actually, he wrote them to be a remembrance to and for Israel. Moses didn’t know, at the time until his death, that his words that he used would cause so much controversy among the rest of the world. Moses didn’t know the plan of salvation that God had planned for the world through His Son, Jesus Christ, several thousand years from actually writing these words “In the beginning God.”

He didn’t know the plan of exchanging a perfect lamb each year for making everything right with God the Father for Jesus Christ (a forever perfect sacrificial lamb) who is His Son sent down to earth to make a way to see God the Father forevermore (John 3:16-21; John 17:1-3).

So, here’s my theory since God leaves it up to humans to lay creation’s timetable out. I say whatever doesn’t include God as the number 1 entity, it is not trustworthy. Although, 6 days of creating 1 day of rest is clearly evident in Creation story (Genesis 1-3). However, in Psalm 90:4 Moses states in a song to the Lord that

To you, a thousand years is like the passing of a day, or like a few hours in the night. (NCV)

Hmmm, that causes me to wonder? Was the 6 days of the Creation actual 24 hour days? Well, it could be. Yet what would you do with Psalm 90:4 in where it states

To you (the Lord), a day is like a thousand years, or like a few hours in the night. (NCV)?

Remember, both accounts of the time were written by the same man who had a deeper connection with God, Moses.

Humans are on the quest for certainty. It is evident in things all around us like in car repairs. You don’t want to be paying for a repair that isn’t the problem with your car, so we seek out car repair shops that have proven themselves to solve the problem in one visit. There are countless others that I could point you back to, but it says in Hebrews 11:6 that

Now without faith it is impossible to please God, for the one who draws near to Him must believe that He exists and rewards those who seek Him. (HCSB)

I don’t believe we will ever know for sure; however, there is the Holy Scripture which is the only collection of writings inspired by God through different writers spanning at least 6000 years.

God wanted to share eternity with us, His prize creation; but we sinned by taking the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, a command given by God that was for our benefit that we should not take the fruit of that cursed but alluring tree. You say, “Well, I never would have given in!” But really? “The knowledge of good and evil, how can there be anything thing wrong with that? It would help me avoid that which is a sin,” you say. Yet that is what exactly happened until 2000 years ago when a perfect baby had been sent by God the Father. That perfect baby that grew up into a man was, is, and forever will be Jesus Christ (God Son). By His physical death, it ripped the substantially weighted curtain in two, which means for us is that we have complete access to God, instead of waiting for a high priest to go into the holy of holies once a year to offer up a perfect lamb to be slaughtered. No, Jesus Christ is that slaughtered perfect lamb creating access to God the Father forevermore.

“In the beginning… Genesis 1”

“In The Beginning God Created…”